From mind to no-mind is a journey of a lifetime. There are moments when I'm so engrossed in thoughts - I forget even my presence. The moment I start observing the thoughts, they start waning into nothingness, like a stream (that I'm sitting beside and watching) suddenly dropped southward into a hole on it's path.
Life is so boring without thoughts though, because I've been living with them from the day I lost my innocence. Thinking of the next holiday as a kid, thinking of females when I grew up (I do that even now), thinking of life when responsibilities grew as hair started falling!
Thoughts - what is this incredible thing that keeps me imprisioned in a cocoon of imagery and a world not seen. They are different from my dreams, because I can observe that I am thinking unlike in a dream where I'm unaware of the state of imagination. It's a feel good factor when things simply don't move the way I want them to... when my boss does not understand your aspirations, I still could think about gaining power over situations one day.
They also create an anti-real transformation in the body-mind and the circumstances. I think and imagine to have a quiet evening at home and am plesantly driving down the road, when somebody from nowhere cuts in front - I jam the brakes. Blood rushes just enof to spill out of my eyes and gasping heart. Transformation through circumstances. What happened to the quiet evening and the bliss of home? It's nowhere. The bubble is burst... Streams of cursing, thinking (again) and repenting what was not.
Think - think of not thinking. No thoughts come to my mind when I think about what I am thinking. When the mind is a no-mind, when thoughts break open to reality... the real is bliss. Reality harms the body-mind NOT. In reality, I react. In thoughts I react and carry the load into the system. Reality is light while thoughts burden my shoulders, shorten my breath, stiffen my muscles and make me old.
I thank the God for the moments of bliss that I encounter by way of no-mind experiences.
eM Dharma
